I really should be asleep now, but I'm not...I spent another evening distracting myself from myself? I think it's because I'm so used to wasting time watching TV now.  Come back from work and cook something and then get sucked into the TV! What's wrong with me? Why all these distractions..it's like I want to write but I find something else to do ......it's very strange.  I seem to either be completely zoning out or doing one of the many things that needs doing. 

At least I made it to the gym today...it's so much harder now to go to the gym with work.  I used to go so often at uni.  The other thing is it's harder to go when you're not trying to loose weight.  It was so much more motivating then.  *sigh* I didn't mean this to be a complainy post..I find myself in an odd mood.  Slightly restless and desperately wanting something exciting to happen......

Next time I get the urge to write, I am going to do it instead of stupidly washing the dishes or some other ridiculous task...

I can't stop giggling..this is the perfect time to write...*giggles more* I love it when things can just be so pleasantly bubbly.  Gentle little happiness...*laughs*...now all I need is a bubbling brook on some wonderfully alien planet and lots of gorgeous sunshine ...and a water nymph, a deer.  Serenity, nature, peace *smiles widely*...this is not a good mood to write angst in is it? *laughs and skips*

Yes it's been days since I posted...hehe still very slow with writing, but that's okay.  If it's slow then it can't be helped!  I also have a new addiction........DANCING! I can't believe how good my first class on Monday was!  Such an adrenaline rush...and inspiring...I didn't come down from that high for such a long time.  It was truly the most amazing thing I've taken up in years and it feels like I should have been dancing my whole life....


I keep thinking Roslin and Zarek should be dancing in some fic...*giggles*  I think very few things could be as romantic or sexy as dancing across a room with only your eyes on each other...although there was absolutely no sexy guys at these dances(but no sleazy guys either).  Very nice friendly guys but no one hot...it's a shame really because I do love a confident leader.  Mainly because it makes it easier to dance and you're not tempted to try and lead!   It's so much easier to dance around people you don't know..it's easier for me to do something new among strangers because there's no preconceived ideas.  I'm really loving having this all to myself.  It's great to start something new and drift into the unknown. 

I've discovered that writing on trains is really easy.  Yesterday I found the words flowing.  I didn't write anything very exciting, but it was a start.  It's great to be doing something active on public transport.  I read alot, but it's more passive.  This  was so uplifting! I'm really enjoying expressing myself in a new way.  I haven't written a story for years, so it's pretty invigorating.   After writing a couple of pages, I realised how easy it is not to explain things because you understand what you're talking about inside your head.  There were so many questions in my mind.  What style to write in to make it mysterious?  Whether to write in first person, third person or some mix? I think alot of people on livejournal are excellent story writers so alot of these questions may be answered subconsciously in your heads and you probably have more of a flowing creativeness when story writing.

I've also been doing bits of art and craft.   I painted a dolphin scene for our flat and I made this picture of some ancient text against a red background which looks really simple but cool!!  My bf loves it , so I'm going to try more pieces.  What amazed me the most was how easily the ideas came.   I denied my creative side for so long because I felt hampered by every day life and all the little things I had to get done.  

Now I feel like I'm flying.... :)

 

Yes!

Yet another beautiful sunny day, so glad I decided to take this week off work.  I shall find a park later and go soak up some of the sun.  I do talk far too much about the weather..and I'm probably a little obsessed, but the Sun really energizes me.  I hate Winter and I find it really hard to be cheery on a dull, grey day.


I'm feeling oddly inspired again.  I love bookshops, somehow just picking up a few books and looking through them can really cheer me up.  I bought  two books today that were semi-useful.  One was about day trips and the other is a really funny take on secret societies..which could come in handy as I want to put one in my story. *giggles* 

I also have an idea for a piece of art  for our flat.  I'm thinking of something with different coloured sands or beads in the shape of a fish.  I think my bf would love it.   I have no idea how to get ahold of this stuff so I'll have to go investigating.


Easter was fantastic, really enjoyed Kew Gardens on Sunday.  It was absolutely packed but so peaceful and relaxing and best of all this time I wasn't freezing to death in my school uniform thanks to the unexpected April snow!  Glad I gave the place another chance :D.

Hello out there...

This is so very strange...I resisted getting a livejournal for so long and I suspect that if you're reading this then you don't know me in real life.  In fact if you do know me then I am amazed and astounded!!

I'm still working out the purpose of this journal but I think it's hopefully going to be about exploration, hearing feedback from people I don't know and maybe I wouldn't meet out in the real world.  I'm at a point in my life where I want to be more creative and explore hidden sides of myself that I don't express in my everyday life.  I think it's so easy to get into patterns with friends you've known for a long time and so often new ideas don't break out.

I've been reading stories for so long and never thought of  writing one myself, but a couple of days ago I made a committment to myself to write a story that's being going around in my head for years.  Perhaps it's too much to call it a story, it's really more a selection of scenes that I would like to work together into a story.  It feels so personal that at the moment I think I would just write it for myself.  So many of the archetypes, themes, ideas feel so close to me that it almost feels private.  Allowing other people to read it (if I ever get around to writing this) feels like it would give away so much about myself.  I think I've always been a really private person, so it's a little daunting.   I wonder if it's easy enough to share your work with others or if anyone else feels like I do? Is it different if you're writing about established characters or they're your own creation? How do you resist the temptation to make your character a Mary-Sue? I realised recently that I tend to make main characters perfect in my head...even though I love reading about complex, angsty characters..I tend to make the heroine almost flawless!

I'll see how this goes, hopefully I'll get somewhere!